rebekah

she asked if i could photograph the accessories that she made and i was more than happy to do it. she’s beautiful, isn’t she? and talented too.

if i look hard enough, i can still see her

illustration friday : sugary

i know i’m not supposed to be using an old illustration. but i’m all tied up this week and this just seems so right for the theme, so i couldn’t resist. (>.<)

it’s been more than a week since i’ve been back and i’ve been kind of grasping at the wind. it’s not even a search for an answer; this time, i don’t even now what my question is.

the 11 days in singapore had been good, but tiring. i love my family to bits and the kids hold a special place in my heart. i had to do a little packing when i was back as my family will move out of the house that we have been living in for more than 10 years come next april. tidying up the things that i left behind-mostly photos and letters from the past-and conversations over the many meals i had with my dear old friends brought me back in time. i remember how i used to really like this quote by khalil gibran, which still holds true for me even at this moment:

remembrance is a form of meeting.
forgetfulness is a form of freedom.

i’m a 100% thankful for my parents as did all they could, and more, to make me feel comfortable back at home again. but at the end of the day, i felt that i’ve become more like a visitor on a short trip. i belong as part of the family, for sure. my parents would want me to feel nothing less. but the personal space where i could unwind after a long day was no longer there. it was a huge relief to step into my apartment in japan with the person i love and have my hammies wiggle their huge pink noses at me.

i want to be here. at least this, i’m quite sure of.

茜色した　陽だまりのなか　無口な風が　ふたりを包む
歩幅合わせて　歩く坂道　いつもあたしは　追いかけるだけ

つまずいたり　転んで　泣いてみたり
決して　うまく　生きれる　あたしじゃないけど
あなたがほら　あたしの　手を引くから
恐がる　心も　強くね　なれるよ

だから

泣いて　笑って　つないだこの手は　重ねた言葉に負けない　約束
あなたに　出逢えた　茜の空に　ほら　あの日と　おなじことを　願うよ

時はいつでも　木の葉散るように　知らぬ間に手を　すり抜けていく

ひとつひとつ　季節は過ぎていくけど
あと　いくつの　想いを　伝えられるだろう
ありふれていた　日々さえ　戻せはしない
この毎日を　一瞬を　愛しく　想うの

だから

涙も　笑顔も　つないだこの手も　幾重の写真に負けない　想い出
あなたに　出逢えた　茜の空に　ほら　あの日と　おなじことを　誓うよ

やがて「別れ」が訪れても　ふたり　すべてを　受け止めていく
「出逢った場所」も「今いる場所」も　永遠に　心と　繋がっている
ほら　振り返れば　足跡が　続くよ

だから

泣いて　笑って　つないだこの手は　最後の瞬間まで　離しはしないで
この道の先を　またふたりで
歩いていこう…　歩いていこう…

だから

泣いて　笑って　つないだこの手は　すべての言葉に負けない　約束
あなたと　出逢えた　茜の空に　ほら　あの日と　おなじことを　願うよ

i finally drew and painted on a cardboard that had been lying around in my apartment for the longest time. and it was only when i finished that i realised i was preparing myself to say goodbye to some JET friends i have grown to love this past 2 years that they have been here. there is so much more i want to say but as usual words fail me.

会津で出会えてよかったよ。